1.24.2009

Is there a 12 step program for this?

I have a problem, and I am ready to come clean. I am addicted to being pregnant. The "baby crazies", as my Parenting magazines have called them, generally hit a woman when her child is finally sleeping through the night. If this is true, then why am I having the baby crazies in my 6th month of pregnancy?

Here is what I think: for as long as I can remember I have gone back and forth (almost weekly) about what I want to do with my life. There are so many things, literally hundreds of possible occupations, that I think would be fun or challenging or fulfilling in some way. A lot of people that I know do not feel this way. They have one passion. One amazing ambition for the lives. I have always been jealous of these people.

I am now one of them.

It does not matter whether I end up finishing my PhD or become the CEO of a huge company, none of it will ever amount to anything when compared to what I am getting to do right now: I am creating a life. That is pretty freaking cool, you guys!

Now don't get me wrong...there are still other things that I want to accomplish in my lifetime besides poppin' out more of these little slimy guys...its just that I feel like I have already accomplished the very coolest thing that I will ever get to do. It is a great feeling. I mean it is a really, really great feeling.

And to think that the college me did not even want to have kids.

3 comments:

Nadine said...

Finally, you know exactly how I have felt for the past 23+ years! It is the most amazing thing you will ever be called to do!

I love and miss you ... Mom

AGH said...

I am exactly the same way (when it comes to my life goals and ambitions). I love teaching (most of the time) but I can think of at least five other things I would love to try my hand at. I got a little of the baby crazies during pregnancy. Read some pregnancy/parenting magazines, got on some baby/mom forums and message boards, thought about babies almost 24/7, thought I would seriously die if I had to wait for G any longer, but I think now that mentality is on hiatus until the sleeping-through-the-night miracle happens haha :)

Alli said...

Motherhood is truly amazing. I'm so glad you're enjoying it so far!